‘I Knew’—Jinger Duggar Opens Up About The Night She Suffered a Miscarriage

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Jinger Vuolo, formerly known as Jinger Duggar on TLC’s 19 Kids and Counting, is opening up this week about the devastating miscarriage she experienced last November.

In this week’s episode of Counting On, the 26-year-old and her husband, former professional soccer player Jeremy Vuolo, sit down and recount the moment they learned she was suffering a miscarriage.

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“We had announced to my family the news that we were expecting,” Jinger says in a clip from this week’s episode. “That night, I started having some concerning signs.”

Jinger says throughout the night she continued to wake up with more and more spotting, and knew it wasn’t normal. In the morning, she called her doctor.

“We went in and they tried to check for a heartbeat, but they couldn’t find one,” Jinger recalls. “They did an ultrasound and said that we had lost the baby.”

The couple was overcome with grief. Having just told their families the exciting news, they were now experiencing a devastatingly different reality.

“It was very difficult for us, the timing,” Jeremy says as Jinger’s face slowly wells up with tears. “It was sudden, and we had just announced to our family and it hit us hard.”

Jeremy says as hard as it was for him, he knows Jinger suffered that much more, acknowledging that most women tend to carry a heavier weight in pregnancy loss because they feel responsible.

“I just wanted to be a comfort to her,” Jeremy says.

In May of this year, the couple who are parents to 2-year-old Felicity, announced that they are expecting their rainbow baby, a little girl who is due this November.

Upon announcing this pregnancy, Jinger took to Instagram, admitting she was experiencing a wide range of emotions.

 

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I’m excited! Yet, the overwhelming feelings of joy and anticipation that I’m feeling today are a sharp reminder of the overwhelming feelings of sadness and loss I felt last November. On a Monday evening, Jer and I were rejoicing with our families as we announced that I was pregnant. Yet, in God’s perfect timing, it was the next morning that I awoke knowing something wasn’t right. Within moments I knew that I’d lost the baby. Tears filled my eyes, sadness cloaked my soul. Having just lost my grandmother months before, the news of new life was like spring lilies blossoming after a dark, cold winter. And in a moment, that life was gone. I know many of you can relate. The minutes feel like hours, the hours like days, don’t they? I was helpless—nothing I could do would restore the lost life. Yet, I was never hopeless. In those moments, I did the only thing I could. I rehearsed the timeless truths upon which I’ve anchored my soul—the truth that God is sovereign and he is good. The truth that Job recited, thousands of years ago, in his agony: “The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.” The pain doesn’t leave quickly. It’s not meant to. But in the midst of pain, the hope we hold is in God who works “all things together for good for those who love him and are called according to his purpose” (Rom 8:28). Dear friends, the reality is, at times we are helpless. But never, and I mean never, do we have to be hopeless.

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“I’m excited! Yet, the overwhelming feelings of joy and anticipation that I’m feeling today are a sharp reminder of the overwhelming feelings of sadness and loss I felt last November,” she wrote.

Jinger says it was remembering God and his sovereignty that helped her find hope in the thick of her grief.

“In those moments, I did the only thing I could. I rehearsed the timeless truths upon which I’ve anchored my soul—the truth that God is sovereign and he is good. The truth that Job recited, thousands of years ago, in his agony: ‘The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord.’ The pain doesn’t leave quickly. It’s not meant to. But in the midst of pain, the hope we hold is in God who works ‘all things together for good for those who love him and are called according to his purpose’ (Rom 8:28). Dear friends, the reality is, at times we are helpless. But never, and I mean never, do we have to be hopeless.”


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