To the Mom Who Feels She’s Lost Herself in Motherhood

He was only three, my oldest son with the high-pitched voice and sweet “Yes, Ma’am.” His younger brother was a roly-poly one-year-old with a laugh that left a happy trail of slobber. And my belly was so full of baby that I could barely breathe.

My insides were as cram-packed as our days. Playdates and naps, followed by long walks to the grocery store. We pulled baby brother in the red wagon. He’d throw his sippy-cup on the sidewalk for his big brother to pick up. It was the boy’s first official game. And my feet were swollen.

Though the days stretched long, they were full of blessings and babies. No complaints. No complaints. I was humbled and happy. Yet something strained in a place inside me, deeper than my third born occupied… down deep within my soul. I feared I was losing myself.

Though my life as their mom was a dream come true… there were other dreams I was losing touch with.

The poet and the painter and the prophet, the reader and the thinker, now dormant parts of my life before.

If you’re a mom, trying to fit your passions into the practical places of a blessed (but busy) home life, I feel ya. It’s not easy – this mashed up, messy experience where motherhood and marriage occupy every square breath.

In this sweet season, raising little people, our creativity, hobbies, and dreams might not fit seamlessly into our days like they once did. Still, I learned in those early years, it is possible for us to gently weave ourselves back into the fabric of our family life again – as we meet with our children over finger paints, serve our husbands savory new recipes, grow a multi-tiered herb garden in our kitchen window, scrapbook our children’s memories, refinish the front porch swing, create hand-sewn banners or chalk board signs, paint the rainbow promise in our journaling Bibles, and sing sweet lullabies to our children at the end of another long day.

This marriage of motherhood and masterpieces is absolutely possible.

Your Life Creative has the potential to be the most beautiful mixed-medium display you’ve ever imagined. But it can feel isolating. “Am I the only one who feels lost in motherhood? Are there other moms who miss their hobbies, and maybe even themselves? Or am I alone as I try to remember the things that used to make my heart soar and sing? Am I the only one looking for ways to fit it in again, right here in my mothering days? The writing, the singing, the painting, the sewing, the dinner parties…”

No. You’re not alone.

Creative women, just like you, each with their own unique brand of phenomenal, are part of a modern day Renaissance – overflowing from home offices, nurseries, and kitchens.

Moms. Everyday, ordinary moms wearing yoga pants, with their hair thrown up in a messy bun – a child on her hip and another in her belly. Moms making love and making art and making meals. Moms.

Of course, it’s not easy. Book writing, canvas painting, graphic designing, home-decorating, recipe-inventing, needle and threading, song-perfecting… with little ones and laundry always calling your name. It doesn’t fit like it used to, but it’s got to fit… to some degree, even if only in a coloring book beside your toddler with her sweet breath against your cheek.

God didn’t screw up when He created you creative and then made you a mom. Creatives don’t cease being creative in the midst of motherhood. Their natural bent doesn’t just bend over and die with the birth of a child. Instead, it morphs, it ebbs and flows, and eeks out in the most difficult and delightful of moments.


If you are eager to remember those long lost passions that once fueled your days, and hope to fit them back again into the practical places of your life, there’s a new book written just for you! Life Creative: Inspiration for Today’s Renaissance Mom ( ) acknowledges the “dark ages” of motherhood, where a woman may get lost for a time. But ultimately, Life Creative points inspired moms to the Renaissance rising in our midst. There are so many ways to use our talents right in our homes, in our local communities, and out into the world.


Join the Renaissance. Order Life Creative today! ( )

Wendy Speake ( ) is an actress who writes, Kelli Stuart ( ) a writer who sings. And both of them are passionate about encouraging women to embrace their Life Creative. For five years they co-hosted a retreat for creative moms, and they dreamed of bottling that sweet time of fellowship to share with other Renaissance Moms. This book is their answer.

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Wendy Speake
As a trained actress and heartfelt Bible teacher, Wendy ministers to women’s hearts through storytelling and biblical life applications. She utilizes drama, comedy, poetry, and the study of God’s Word. During her career in Hollywood, on shows such as JAG, Melrose Place, Star Trek Voyager, and Roswell, Wendy found herself longing to tell stories that edify and encourage women! She now writes and performs dramatic Bible studies that move her audiences closer to Jesus. She also writes memoir-styled posts on her personal blog,, and is the co-author of the book: Triggers: Exchanging Parents' Angry Reactions for Gentle Biblical Responses. Wendy resides in Southern California with her husband and their 3 ruddy boys.