Country singer Granger Smith’s wife, Amber Smith, says she is “broken,” following the tragic death of the couple’s 3-year-old son, River.
The toddler died in a drowning accident at the family’s home last month.
Amber took to Instagram on Monday with several photos of River and a heartbreaking post about her grief journey so far.
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“Missing my baby so much,” she wrote. “People keep saying, ‘you’re so strong,’ ‘how are you functioning?’ ‘I wouldn’t be able to get out of bed.’ I am broken. My heart will never be the same. I will never be the same. Yes, I have strong moments, but I also (as any grieving mother would do) cry, scream, question, and fall to my knees. Then I get back up and fight,” she shared.
The post features photos of Amber and her 3-year-old, as well as several images of encouraging Bible verses including Psalm 23:4, Romans 8:26, and Zephaniah 3:17.
“I just want to share my journey with all of you because it will be a long road, and if we can help at least one person going through something like this, then it is worth it to me to be open about my feelings, my faith, my struggles,” she told her 114k followers.
Amber goes on to encourage others in her shoes—people who are grieving their own loss of any kind.
“You can do this. You can grieve and still be strong for your family, husband and or other kiddos,” she told them. “Lean in to Him in your weakness and learn to not beat yourself up (like I do) when you are having a moment of calm. Shut out the negative and focus on the light and the love.”
She also urged followers to be kind to everyone they meet. Walking through this battle of her own, she knows firsthand just how much a small act of kindness can go a long way.
“Be kind to those around you. Before you choose to judge or tear down, always try to encourage or lift people up. That person next to you, that car in front of you, that woman down the street, that man in your office, those kiddos in the store, you never know what kind of trials they are facing,” she wrote.
Amber ended her post by thanking fans for their stories and prayers, saying that much of her strength has been found in those encouraging messages.
“I’m so grateful.”