I love the way birth photography has become so popular; it is a phenomenon that truly highlights the beauty and joy that new life brings. But one aspect of it I had not seen until recently is the capturing of something that shifts when a mom is having her second child. So, when I saw this amazing photo by Crowned Photography of a very pregnant mama sitting in her hospital bed awaiting birth, my heart stopped for just a moment. The reason why? Because as she awaited the birth of her second child, she was holding tightly to her first child, not wanting to let go of something that will soon be forever changed.
This photo took me back to that moment in my own life: saying goodbye to my son, aged 2 years and 9 months, before I headed off to the hospital. I was grieving a little and feeling guilt that his world was about to change in a huge way, and he had NO idea. His first years of life were my happiest; he was an easy baby and a joy. My husband and I delighted in him 24/7! He’d had me all to himself, he’d been the sole focus of my husband’s and my attention for nearly three years, and now our attention was about to be divided in a huge way! Though I knew our lives would all be better for having the new baby with us, I did grieve for what we’d never have again. (Mother’s intuition? My daughter was a very difficult baby and her first year of life was one of my hardest.) And so this emotional photo truly touched me deeply. It brought back everything I felt that day, over 9 years ago, without saying a word. I surely wish I had a picture like this of my own to cherish!
Do you remember saying goodbye to your first baby before going off to have your second? What was that moment like for you?