“Are we tying your tubes while we’re in here?” My doctor asked.
I hesitated. I was PRETTY sure I never wanted to be pregnant again.
But not sure enough.
I looked at my husband. “I’m not ready for that yet,” I said.
I walked out of that hospital with my fertility intact.
If I had only known, I wouldn’t have.
If I had ONLY known what was to come, I would have said. “YES. TIE THOSE TUBES. I have more than I can handle.”
But I didn’t know.
I didn’t know that Sophie would cry nearly ALL the time. I didn’t know that she’d only sleep in 45-minute spurts day or night. I didn’t know she’d want to nurse ALL the time, that she’d scream at night to be comforted and that the only person she wanted to do the comforting was ME.