It’s early morning, when I wake and feel him next to me. I lie as still as possible, careful not to wake him. I look over through the pale blue morning light, the quiet prelude before dawn. The beeping will sound soon, and he will wake and rush with the rest of the world. But for these few quiet minutes I lay here, hearing nothing but the sound of his breath.
How did he come to me?
I remember the day I met him, I remember the way his hand greeted mine. The touch of his skin. The only skin I would ever touch or be touched by, again. I had no idea then, that we’d be lying here together, eight years later, like this.
I remember the way his fingers moved with careful fretwork up the neck of his guitar. And the way his voice soothed a part of me I never knew needed soothing.
I remember the first time he kissed me. The gentle flush in his cheeks. The steady green in his eyes, like the sea after it’s rained.
What happened to the wonder? The wonder of…
How did I get like…this? Love-less. And demanding. And more interested in making dinner than making…
Could I be still enough,
to take him in?
To drink deep and long of love again?
Too many words are spoken, broken, spilled. There are expectations and disappointments, and flaws and failures, and real sin, and real pain, and real…
That word, that thing that Jesus came to show us. And poured out His blood for. So we would know what real love looks like. That it sweats, and cries, and bleeds. That it gives up self. And makes itself low.
And is gentle. And is kind.
And is not rude.
Do I see him the way God sees him?
Because: God sees him as precious.
Fearfully and wonderfully made…by God Himself.
I have him for only such a short time. I do not even know how short. And I wasn’t chosen just to be his housemaid, or his business partner…but his wife. His bride. His friend.
To have and to…
I look over this morning. His chestnut hair falls across his forehead. He is so still. So quiet. So handsome. It all seems so simple here…before the beeping.
But it’s a choice: Who will I rise to be today?
Today, could I bend a little lower,
speak a little softer,
wait a little longer
kiss a little slower?
To fall in love. To fall like leaves, in surrender. To fall to my knees, becoming tender.
For I am his, and he is mine. And the banner over us is Love.
[Your turn! I am challenging you to participate in the”Fall In Love” challenge. All you have to do is to share in the comment section one thing you love about your spouse. Or, if you are blogger, you are doubly challenged to write a post endearing to your spouse and leave a link to it in the comment section.]