‘He Came Quickly and Unexpectedly’—Ashley LeMieux Details Son’s Tragic Birth at 16-Weeks

“I know that life might seem impossible for you right now. I know that it might freaking hurt like hell, and you might be really scared. But maybe there are some little lullaby’s that are still surrounding you, that can remind you that life, joy, growth, and love, still overpower the darkness. Listen for the lullaby today.”

 

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I can’t believe it’s been a week since I delivered my baby boy. I miss him so much it physically hurts. ❤️ Something happened in the hospital that has given me hope, that I want to share with you. Every time a baby was born, a little lullaby would play throughout the entire hospital. I noticed it my first night there, and it gave me so much peace, fighting for my life knowing that in a couple months the lullaby would play for my own baby. It gave me courage to withstand the pain that overtook my entire body. • But then Jayce didn’t make it, and right after I delivered him, all alone in my room, the lullaby came on. I sobbed. It wasn’t supposed to be that way. It wasn’t time for his lullaby yet. The rest of our time at the hospital, I’d hear the lullaby play multiple times a day. Instead of bringing pain, @mikelemieux and I found tremendous peace and comfort every time we heard the lullaby. It filled me with hope, in a time of intense agony. It reminded me that life still grows, that there is still joy, and love still exists, even in our darkest moments. It was my promise that life is still surrounding me. ❤️ Every day since we left the hospital, I look for the lullaby’s throughout my day. Sometimes it’s the sun coming up, or the butterfly that flutters past my window, other times it’s my husbands laugh or the feeling of my own smile breaking through. ❤️ I know that life might seem impossible for you right now. I know that it might freaking hurt like hell, and you might be really scared. But maybe there are some little lullaby’s that are still surrounding you, that can remind you that life, joy, growth, and love, still overpower the darkness. Listen for the lullaby today.

A post shared by Ashley Lemieux (@ashleyklemieux) on Apr 3, 2020 at 11:40am PDT

Our hearts and our prayers are with Mike and Ashley as they navigate this new grief and peace. Jayce brought healing, and we’re praying for more of that to come.