Bold Women and Raw Faith: Searching for Purpose in the Trenches of Motherhood

Boldness has taken an interesting turn since childhood. As a girl growing up in the desert, being bold meant facing off with the rivers of flash floods. Or when I was in seventh grade, I punched a boy in the face for picking on my brother.

I’m finding I’m not the same girl in my thirties like I was when I was seven or twelve. Somewhere between marriage, entering the work force and motherhood, I became less ardent to risk and clung more to safety. I hung back instead of moving forward. I camouflaged and tried to match magazine covers, only I didn’t realize it. I thought I was bold and brave and strong, until I faced an incredible period of loss, pain and change.

Recently, I found myself sitting my counselor’s office when she posed the question:

 “What do you need to do to get the old Heather back. The one who everyone says is strong and bold? She’s still in there.”

I was at a loss. I searched to find her in all the old things I used to be and do, but I came up empty. I had been persuaded that God didn’t care about me. I believed the lie I had nothing else to offer. I was actually afraid to go to God, because I didn’t know what his future held for me. But going to him was the key

“You’re hiding from me. You’re hiding from yourself,” I hear him whisper. “Be brave, be bold, take courage.” 

I smirk and roll my eyes at the God Most High and question, “How am I supposed to do that?” 

Heather Riggleman
Heather Riggleman
Heather Riggleman calls Nebraska home (Hey, it’s not for everyone). She roams small towns looking for stories and coffee with her husband and three kids. She writes to bring the perspective of bold truths and raw faith into universal concepts women face from marriage, career, mental health, depression, faith, relationships, to celebration and heartache. Heather is a former national award-winning journalist and the author of Mama Needs a Time Out and Let’s Talk About Prayer. Her work has been featured on Proverbs 31 Ministries, MOPS, Today's Christian Woman and Focus On the Family. You can find her on Facebook, Instagram Instagram, or at

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