Lean on your community. (We ran most of them off because we are miserable humans to be around a lot of the time because of the journey we are on.)
Hold tight to Jesus. (Trying, but hard to do when you just can’t see or hear anything from Him, so it seems.)
Love the ones well that you still have here. (Trying, but yeah, we are all broken and moms try so hard, but it is just so broken a lot of the time and we make it worse somehow.)
Good things have happened since. (Great! Good for you, still sad for us.)
Those thoughts have at one moment or another entered my heart and my mind. In reality, more times than I’d care to admit. Still, I try somehow to take the thoughts captive and keep walking in what I know to be true.
Okay, so here is where I’m supposed to turn the corner and wrap this all up in a big pretty bow. Um…. Okay. Not as easy as it sounds, and all the good is tangled up with so many hard days. I’m just being honest, so here goes!
Good news! The Chapmans are still together and still a family. By God’s grace, this journey of losing Maria has without a doubt made us a family that knows what is important and knows that we are for each other and not against, and that we absolutely have each other’s backs.
“By God’s grace.” I honestly have nothing to add…I just wanted you all to read Mary Beth’s brave words. So many Christians are afraid of being REAL – even in grief – because they are afraid of being judged. I love it that Chapman is, even in her grief and questioning, strong enough to admit that it “sucks” but that God is in it with her. She knows His grace covers – and does not judge or shun – her grief, doubt and questioning. What some may see as weak faith, I see as unbreakably strong. And I wanted to share her words with you hear in case some of you really needed to hear them and know that you aren’t alone.
You can read her entire blog post, with an update on the entire Steven Curtis Chapman family here and follow her on Facebook, too.
