I wake up plumb exhausted…however that’s possible…and tell Jackson so.
He reaches for my hand under the covers, a bit of connection before the day rushes upon us.
“It’s not just body-tired,” I tell him. “It’s heart-tired. I feel soul weary and don’t want to do anything but lay in this bed.”
He rubs my arm before springing out of bed with parting instructions: “You stay here and rest. I’m fixing breakfast this morning.”
I let him.
I know the best way to serve my family today is by first strengthening my heart with grace. (Hebrews 13:9)
I’ve been in this soul weary place many times. I don’t have all the answers.
But I know sitting with a few aptly spoken words is what I need now more than anything. I need Manna to be Bread and Life to me.
“Lord,” I pray, curled in the fetal position. “I’m not adequate for today. I have nothing left to give.”
“Who is adequate for these things?” He asks me. “Your adequacy doesn’t come from yourself but from Me.”
“Lord, I don’t have the strength to serve these kids, this loving husband of mine, the people I’m called to.”
“You are to serve in the strength that I supply, my child… not from the lack of your own.”
“Lord, I’m not good. I’m lacking in love and I’m selfish and there is so much of ME in the way of YOU.”
“I’ve given you everything you need to live godly in Christ Jesus. Stop looking at yourself and simply trust that My blood has purchased the provision for you.”
“Lord, I will believe. I will believe it isn’t the one who works that sees the miraculous happen, but the one who believes.”
“Yes, my girl, trust. Because I will never leave you or forsake you. I will supply all your needs according to My riches. I am your righteousness. I am your strength. I am your bread and water. I am the Shepherd of your soul. I am the One who purchased your every breath with My own blood. I have redeemed you in every way! You can live working and striving, doubting and weak… or you can live trusting Me.”
“Lord, I believe.”
And within  or so minutes, my soul is nourished and I’m ready to step out in trust. Ready to face the needs and demands of the day. Ready to walk by faith.
Not that I *feel* strong because I don’t. But my faith is restored that God will be there each step of my day, giving the provision as needed.
God’s provisions are just in time. They rarely come stockpiled and warehoused. They come moment by moment, as you need them…and they are only accessible by faith.
If your faith is shattered, your supply line is down and you’ve no way to access the provisions He’s providing. If your faith is weak today and you have nothing left to give, I encourage you to sit awhile with God’s word.
Below are 8 Bible Verses for when you feel overwhelmed.
I return to these when I am empty.
Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God.
He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant — not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.
2. II Peter 1:3
His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness.
3. I Peter 4:11
If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who speaks the very words of God. If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.
Now he who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will also supply and increase your store of seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness.
You will be enriched in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God.
And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
So again I ask, does God give you his Spirit and work miracles among you by the works of the law, or by your believing what you heard?
So also Abraham “believed God, and it was credited to him as righteousness.
Now Elijah the Tishbite, from Tishbe in Gilead, said to Ahab, “As the LORD, the God of Israel, lives, whom I serve, there will be neither dew nor rain in the next few years except at my word.”
Elijah Fed by Ravens Then the word of the LORD came to Elijah: “Leave here, turn eastward and hide in the Kerith Ravine, east of the Jordan.
You will drink from the brook, and I have directed the ravens to supply you with food there.” So he did what the LORD had told him. He went to the Kerith Ravine, east of the Jordan, and stayed there.
The ravens brought him bread and meat in the morning and bread and meat in the evening, and he drank from the brook.
Elijah and the Widow at Zarephath Some time later the brook dried up because there had been no rain in the land. Then the word of the LORD came to him: “Go at once to Zarephath in the region of Sidon and stay there. I have directed a widow there to supply you with food.” So he went to Zarephath. When he came to the town gate, a widow was there gathering sticks. He called to her and asked, “Would you bring me a little water in a jar so I may have a drink?”
As she was going to get it, he called, “And bring me, please, a piece of bread.”
“As surely as the LORD your God lives,” she replied, “I don’t have any bread — only a handful of flour in a jar and a little olive oil in a jug. I am gathering a few sticks to take home and make a meal for myself and my son, that we may eat it — and die.” Elijah said to her, “Don’t be afraid. Go home and do as you have said. But first make a small loaf of bread for me from what you have and bring it to me, and then make something for yourself and your son.
For this is what the LORD, the God of Israel, says: ‘The jar of flour will not be used up and the jug of oil will not run dry until the day the LORD sends rain on the land.’ ” She went away and did as Elijah had told her. So there was food every day for Elijah and for the woman and her family.
For the jar of flour was not used up and the jug of oil did not run dry, in keeping with the word of the LORD spoken by Elijah.
And if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like the noonday.
The LORD will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail.
It’s the end of the day now and I am recording this here because I sense the Lord asking me to. I don’t know if anyone needs the encouragement here or not but if you do, may I close with a prayer for you today?
Lord, I pray for my sister (or brother) in Christ. I pray for her faith to remain strong and for Your word to take root in her heart. I pray she would step out in trust today in whatever way You are asking. I pray for her heart to be nourished by Your grace even in this moment, and for her to understand the heights and depths of Your love. I ask for extra margin in her day today… just to sit awhile with Your word and feed on Your promises. Thank You for Your blood that has purchased every provision we need. In Christ’s name, Amen!