I Don’t Want More Babies, I Want More TIME

From the moment we opened that white envelope, I had known our family was complete.

I knew that this chapter of our lives was coming to a close but saying the words, starting the conversation, took a strength I had to dig deep in my heart to find.

What I finally realized is that I don’t want more babies — what I want more than anything is more time with the babies I already have.

I don’t want to become a Mom again — I want to be transported back to the moment I first became a Mom and held my beautiful baby girl in my arms for the first time.

I have no desire to comfort another crying baby in the middle of the night — I want to go back in time to the nights my middle child screamed with colic, hold her tight and rock her calmly through the night instead of feeling frustrated and annoyed and desperate for sleep.

I don’t need to hear another toddler say his or her first words but I would give anything to spend another day just sitting and listening to my two-year-old babble, in the sweetest voice I’ve ever heard, as she made sense of the world around her.

I don’t want to nurse another baby — I want to go back to the last time I nursed my baby boy and savor the moment, hold him a little closer, breathe in his sweet scent and enjoy every last second of our year-long nursing journey.


Katy Jackman
Katy Jackman
Author Bio- Katy Jackman is a stay at home mom and freelance writer from Michigan to three kids under the age of 6. She enjoys date nights with her husband, good books, cheap wine, and spending time with family and friends. Her work can be found on Babble, Scary Mommy, on her blog Whine Thirty, and on Facebook.

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