It takes a lot for me to turn my thoughts upwards and remind myself that God doesn’t make cookie-cutter people. Our day and age demands so much of people – men and women and children alike – and some thrive under that pressure. But others were born for different eras – when life was quiet, but hard-working, with most days at home, the hub of industry and life. For some reason, I wasn’t born in that time…but that doesn’t mean I can’t create that kind of life for our family, a bubble of peace and calm amidst the modern rat race.
It is hard to say “No” to people when you love them and want to see them, but know that if you did, it would be sacrificing your health and well-being (which so directly impacts your main ministry, your family). It’s easy to give in to feelings of wanting to be like happily-busy people and think that somehow you’ll adjust and be okay. And then it is easy to feel ashamed when you crash and have to hide out from people for awhile.
It isn’t easy. But I guess, when we stop comparing, and start praising God…no matter what weakness we have that we can’t change about ourselves, and actually trust Him with it…Trusting that He made us and so intimately knows us, that He never uses perfect people, but only those who lean into Him and use His power in their weakness…Then, I guess, we can be like Paul when he said that he boasted in his weakness because of the power that rested on him in Christ.
Can I boast in my weakness? Can I let Christ’s power rest on me?***
