As a Christian, why are you not staying forever?
Short answer: God.
Long answer: {Deep breath.}
This is going to be the messiest part to lay out for you. This will be the most intimate part, and the part that has the potential for most misunderstanding. Holy Spirit, give me the words.
It got bad enough that I finally really woke up and got serious help. And when I got that serious help, my eyes were opened to how bad things really were. No relationship should function the way my marriage was functioning. I am not staying forever because we were just beyond broken.