Then I looked to the world. I searched Google, Facebook, Instagram and Twitter. I followed and have been followed, I’ve liked and been liked. But it’s not the same. Those thumbs up and emoji’s don’t stop the hurting. Don’t hold me when my world is dark and cold. Only you can do that.
So where else would I go?
You are the only person who fills me from the inside out. You’re the only place where my fear holds hands with peace, where joy and pain lie nestled side by side.
You keep your promises.
So I trust in you too.
I’ll bring it all to you; my pain, hurt, emptiness, and overwhelm, and lay it at your feet.
Then I’ll walk away. As best I can, without turning back to snatch it up again.
Thank you for holding me, never leaving me, and working this junk and yuck for good (even if I have absolutely no clue how you’re going to do that).
Jesus, help me scootch over to the passenger seat of life.
I need you to drive.
You said there’d be storms and boy, is this ever a tropical one. It’s threatening to drown me and everywhere I look there’s flood damage.
Yet you came to give us life in all its fullness. I don’t get it, how does that stack up?
Maybe they’re not sequential, separated in time and space.
What if we’ve got it wrong when we wait until the storm is over to live full life. Am I right God?
If so, show me more of your abundance right where I am. Help me see the rubies in the rubble of my life, the diamonds in the dirt. Give me your eyes, Lord, because I can see diddly squat around here.
Thank you that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height not depth, not anything else in all creation, will be able to separate me from your love in Jesus.[1]
Today is a new day. Your mercies are fresh and your grace is sufficient.
Thank you for being you.
Thank you for never leaving me.
Let’s chat again soon.
In the name of your son Jesus, who died so I could thrive and not just survive, all this earthly rubbish and pain,
Amen, from your messed up, overwhelmed, ranting child.
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This article originally appeared at NikiHardy.com.
