To the Mom in the Costume Who ‘Isn’t Feeling It’ This Halloween

This past weekend we were preparing to go to Boo at the Zoo as we do each year. I’ve had the same super woman costume since before motherhood and I wear it every year because it saves me money, and it’s easy. This year for this event, I wasn’t feeling it so I planned to go sans costume.

As we were heading out the door my boys asked if I would wear my super woman costume and after a few rounds of, “PLEEEEASE!?!??” I obliged.

I hurried upstairs to throw it on and my son excitedly followed close behind. Standing in the mirror as I adjusted and modified, I wasn’t thrilled with my reflection. We didn’t have time for anything else though so I just shrugged with unwilling acceptance and said out loud, “I look ridiculous.”

Just then I caught my son staring up at me and his precious look of awe and wonder shifted to devastation and heartbreak.

He stared at me and said, “Why would you say you look ridiculous!? You look beautiful.”

As I looked at his wide-eyed little face anticipating my response, I remembered.

I remembered feeling that exact same sadness as I watched my own beautiful mom destroy herself in the mirror. I remembered feeling that exact same heartbreak and confusion as she made similar statements all too often.

To me, she was perfect. So why would this perfect, beautiful, amazing woman say such awful things about herself? It didn’t make any sense.

My son felt the same.

So I quickly smiled and said, “Oh I’m just kidding. It’s great! You’re right!! Let’s go!!” But I knew I hurt his heart.

Rachael Boley
Rachael Boley
Rachael is a 29 year old single mom of 3 little nuggets-identical twin 2 1/2 year olds and a 14 month old. She works full time as an Oncology Social Worker, and in her "spare time," she wrestles, snuggles, and loves on her three boys. She moonlights as a blogger and writer, and spends her days learning to enjoy this crazy, messy beautiful life of single motherhood. Follow her on her blog Three Boys and a Mom and on her Facebook page , and read more of her writings at Divorced Moms.

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