What was it for, Lord? — Finding Peace in Pregnancy Loss

Amidst a hurricane of anxiety and fear this week, the Lord kindly called my attention to Philippians 4:6-7

“Don’t be pulled in different directions or worried about a thing. Be saturated in prayer throughout each day, offering your faith-filled requests before God with overflowing gratitude. Tell him every detail of your life, then God’s wonderful peace that transcends human understanding, will make the answers known to you through Jesus Christ.”

I don’t know the answer to this anxiety that has come upon me since the loss of our first babe other than it comes when I saturate my life with prayer each. and. every. day. His peace was there in that doctors office. And on that phone call. And in that hospital room. And as we faced one another and soaked our pillows with tears.

What I know is He is good. And that His peace is a promise He will always keep.

There’s a peace far beyond all understanding
May it ever set my heart at ease
What anxiety fails to remember is peace is a promise You keep
Peace is a promise You keep

-Peace | Hillsong Young & Free

To that girl down there who was about to enter into a kind of heartbreak she’d never known before, what I know to be true is that God will be faithful. He sees you, He loves you, and He is already working everything out in a way that will leave you feeling the unexplainable peace and contentment that only He can give.

To every person out there who is living their days as the “1” they refer to in the 1 in 4 who will experience miscarriage or infant loss, your story and their little life, is immeasurably valuable. I’m grateful for a God who is still good, even through life’s greatest hurts.

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A version of this piece originally appeared on lifewiththefergusons.com, published with permission.


Laura Ferguson
Laura Fergusonhttp://lifewiththefergusons.com
Laura is a self-professed idea addict. She is slowly but surely learning to lean into the gentle rhythms of grace; that there is peace and joy to be found in the present calling. These days it is seeking God, who ransomed her heart before she ever knew it needed ransoming, her husband who pursues her heart daily (even when she is less than pursuit-worthy), and her two children that stole her heart the moment she first heard their little hearts beating. Her greatest hope is that God would be found by others through her own pursuit of Him.

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