I Would Save the Stuffed Animals

The other night I had a dream, and it wasn’t a great one, frankly.  My whole family had died…and I’ll spare you the morbid details, but it woke me up in the middle of the night.  No parent wants to have dreams like that, but every parent has them.

Sometimes I can’t go back to sleep after dreams like that, and I just lie there in bed wishing I could shut my brain off for hours on end until the sun comes up.  I hate nights like that.  But the other night, when this happened, a thought came to me.  I don’t know where it came from, and I don’t know why it intrigued me, but I asked myself, “What would I keep if my family died?”

I’ve got 5 kids and a wife who I love to death.  I’d do anything, anything within a reasonable moral framework, for those kids.  And if they died, part of me would die to.  What in the world would it be like to sort that out?  I mean, we don’t have a big house, but we’ve got enough stuff to fill four more houses just like it.  I wouldn’t keep all of my wife’s clothes.  I wouldn’t keep all of the kids’ toys and stuff.  I wouldn’t need to keep a fraction of the stuff I owned.

But as I laid there, thinking about what it would be like to go through all that stuff, that’s when I wondered, “What would I keep?”  What would be the things that were just too precious to part with?

And, God help me, I hope I never have to make those decisions, but I can tell you right now three things I’d keep.  I’d keep an “Ellie”, a “Bonzo”, and an unnamed teddy bear that’s been hanging around for 18 years.  I’m telling you now, without a hint of uncertainty, there’s no way I could ever part with those.

Ellie, as he/she is called, is my three-year-old’s stuffed elephant.  We’re not very consistent with the gender.  I’ve always called it a “he”, but my toddler goes with “she”.  We’re fairly inclusive with stuffed animals, I guess.  I should yield to the preference of the owner – “she”, it is.

She’s not a very clean elephant, even as elephants go.  I’d imagine that the wilderness of Africa is more sterile than most of the places she’s been.  She gets hauled to the bathroom, the bedroom, the dinner table, and every car ride we take. She soaks up the tears in the arms of my little girl in those first moments after the daily traumas of toddlerhood.  Every night she’s tucked in, and every morning Ellie’s still locked in her little elbows when I wake her up.

I couldn’t part with Ellie.

Or Bonzo, the little yellow teddy-bear I gave my oldest daughter a dozen years ago.  I get the credit for naming that little fella’, who’s definitely male by the way.  Ronald Reagan did a highly mocked movie in the olden days titled, Bedtime for Bonzo.  In the movie, Bonzo is a monkey, but in our first home with our first child, Bonzo was the bear that went to bed with her.  We would say, “Bedtime for Bonzo,” and she’d grab that yellow bear, clutch him close to those baby cheeks and march off to her room with him hidden behind long locks of curly red hair.

That curly red hair is gone, lost in the transformation that takes a child and remakes her into something nearly adult.  But Bonzo’s still around and still affectionately embraced from time to time. He’s earned a permanent place in the top bunk, the good and faithful servant that he’s been, a rare remnant of childhood that she seems more proud of than embarrassed by.

No, there would be no “goodwill box” for that stained, fluffed-out little bear were something to happen to his owner.

Nor would there be any goodbye for a little brown bear, unnamed but well-known by all in our household.  This little fellow belonged to my wife.  He went to college with her, and in the long-passed days of teenage drama, when she was taken away from me for several months, this little bear was her secret parting gift for me to remember her by during that awful time.  Far too old for stuffed animals by that age, I’m sure he looked rather strange in my bedroom to any friends, siblings, or parents who wandered by.  But I kept him around, and he favored more attention from me in those months than any of the Michael Jordan posters on the walls.

Now my kids have adopted him, and there’s no goodbye in sight.

So I can safely say that for all the cleaning-out I’d have to do if some awful tragedy befell our family, I know of at least a few things that I’d save: the stuffed animals.

Something about this seemed strange, perhaps even inexplicable to me the more I thought about it.  These aren’t expensive items that would be costly to replace, though they are undoubtedly irreplaceable.  They aren’t all gifts from me or gifts for me. Wouldn’t it make more sense to keep the pictures they’d colored or the medals or trophies they’d worked so hard for?

But then it dawned on me.  There’s only one reason for me to feel such a strong attachment to these stuffed toys, and here it is:  my children (even my wife) loved them.

Reggie Osborne
Reggie Osbornehttp://reggieosborne.com/
Reggie Osborne II is the Preaching Pastor at The First Baptist Church of New Paris (fbcnp.com). He and his wife, Allison, have five children, and together they are striving to offer all of themselves to God as servants of Jesus.  He occasionally writes at his blog "Things that don't fit in sermons", which can be found at reggieosborne.com.  He enjoys hearing from readers, answering their questions, and learning about what God is doing in their lives.

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