Satan also adores you when you get on the phone and ignore your kids, when you hide your true feelings and dreams and frustrations with your husband with a weak “I’m fine”, and when you feel like this fun birthday party at the park for your children isn’t “the best” compared to someone else’s insanely expensive Pinterest celebration.
Satan is a thief.
Satan wants you to fail. And to feel alone. And to feel inadequate to what Someone Else has CALLED you to do because he’s a silent killer.
Because I might as well have left the front door unlocked and allowed a thief to come right in my home yesterday. I mean, why not? I let satan in. After all the fussing and nagging and utter bone tired exhaustion, I crawled into bed with my three year old for a moment. Just to apologize.
“I am so sorry today was so rough”
“I didn’t think it was rough. I thought it was fun!”
“Really? Which part was fun?”
“The part where we played on the couch like we were on a boat. Where we ‘fished’ with your belt as a fishing line, and used the couch pillows for life boats”.
Tears started rolling down my cheeks.
“Please pray for me. That I can be a better Mommy”.
“Oh, I did! Earlier today. When it was sunny. Right before we played the boat game”.
Today I’m locking the door tight to whatever evil enters my heart and home.
Today I am going to remember the One who GIVES LIFE and knows I am a mess and LOVES ME ANYWAY.
I washed the undies. The cat took care of the food. That four year old is now six and can read like a champ. But she still names random things. And it’s cool that my hair is “shiny” because it is unwashed and I can’t wear tall boots because they make me taller than the guy that loves me to the moon and back.
Roll those cars down a ramp, read one more princess story, forget how “busy” you think you are and what the world thinks you should accomplish in a 24 hour period and for heaven’s sake, LOG OFF OF PINTEREST.
Take your kids and an old, worn blanket, reheat that coffee and hold them tight and just rest at the feet of Jesus for a moment.
Today? It is going to be okay. Take back your motherhood. It is a gift. Listen to the life-giver, NOT the silent killer and liar.
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly. {John 10:10}
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This post originally appeared at Letters From the Nest, published with permission.
