To My Firstborn: I Didn’t Know

I didn’t know that as your body went from “skinny” to “lanky,” my breath would catch in my throat.

I didn’t know that I’d hear you laughing at a TV show in the other room and think “Is there a strange man in the house?”

I didn’t know that my eyes would go wide with shock when I realized that man was you.

But, I also didn’t know, son, how much FUN it would be to have a teen like you.

I didn’t know how much I would love making jokes with you that you were old enough to “get.”

I didn’t know how much fun it would be to love watching the same TV show as you do.

I didn’t know how much fun it would be to tease you about the million ways I could embarrass you in front of your friends.

I didn’t know how much I’d hear you talk about doing good with and being kind to your peers.

I didn’t know how much pride I’d feel when you’d repeatedly ask me over and over about serving and volunteering.

I didn’t know how amazing it would feel to see you handle disappointments so well.

The truth is, son, I didn’t know how amazing you could be. And I still don’t. But now I know how truly privileged I am to have a front row seat to your story, even if my supporting role fades out a bit as time goes on.

I know I’ll always miss the sweet baby boy that you were, but I have a feeling that I’ve have no idea how much joy is still in store for me as your mom.

And I know I sure am glad you’re my son.

Love Always,

Your Super Emotional and Embarrassing Mom

Jenny Rapson
Jenny Rapson
Jenny is a follower of Christ, a wife and mom of three from Ohio and a freelance writer and editor.

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